Decisions/Got my Swagger Back

So Friday after work, I went home threw some stuff in a bag and hit the road to visit my peeps in Atlanta. I remember when I was younger going to Atlanta was like going to the UK or Jamaica some where. It was like foreign land considering I was from Kentucky I used to be overly excited to see......

Well established Black folks

living well living like people in those books I used to read

Now...

Its over populated.

If you've seen one shopping centre

you've seen them all.

No different than Charlotte to me

Just larger and surrounded by

more hype.

However, its the South and I love it.

It was a beautiful thang to pull up at my homies house and see faces I haven't see in sooo damn long

When You're away from someone for a long time You forget their mannerism

You forget what people look like when they laugh.

Why they are your best friend.

I got my swagger back yall.

Sometimes it takes

being around the people that know you

best

to remind you

how far you have come and what you are capable of

I was thinking on the way back, how these people knew me when I was a

little girl

young, dumb, at battle

with myself

They have seen me win those battles

they have seen me loose some too.

Shit some of them were on the front line

crushing the enemy

right along with me (my girls can laugh at that one)

Ive fought for them too

those battles made us all stronger.....

Into

Women

Into

Men

This weekend I realized that I have been caught up in this routine of mine

called

LIFE

for a minute now,

and it did me some justice to sit on the couch

and talk about old times, the old

ME and

LAUGH

LAUGH

Peep, NOTICE, discover

LAUGH

Heal,

decide.....

Yeap thats right.

I decided

NOT TO DECIDE

To just be who I am

and maybe then someone will see the beauty in that

if they do they will be my life mate

if they don't.....

they will move out of the way for my life mate

to arrive

Yeap.

That's what I decided

To remember who I am

Be grateful for the good people in my life

to keep my swagger

it looks good on me

and

I LIKE IT